Crazy in LOVE :)))

Dear Blog,
I am sorry I have ignored you all week. God has been so awesome, it has taken me days to prepare myself to share with you how awesome He is. I am just now to the point that I think I may be able to find words to begin.
Love, Anna

I have literally been trying to write this blog for an entire week. Seriously, seven days have gone by since I started the first draft. I type and delete, type and delete. I just cannot seem to find the perfect words for what is going on in my world right now. So I am just settled to define this blog entry as random. That is exactly what it is going to be.

So, this past week I moved back to Bowling Green for school. Classes start on Monday and I can already tell this is going to be a difficult semester. However, I believe I will make it; I cannot really say much about that yet since classes have not started!

I also moved in my younger sister Rebekah, who will be a freshman this year. Its so interesting to look at all the students who are just entering into this phase of their life and knowing that only a year has passed since I was in the exact same position. One of the things that I truly love about college is how much God can do in one year.

Last year I started school utterly alone. I was confident that God would take care of me, but going to college changed my life way more than I ever thought it would. I found a great connection with Campus Crusade for Christ and this year I am starting the school year with a whole ban of friends who are on fire to win the campus for Christ. I find that when I am with them I long to improve my relationship with Christ, not only that, but I am also empowered to tell others about Him. It is amazing how God has shown me that He is much bigger than I know.

I have found that in certain areas of my life I fail to ask for all that God can give me because I believe that I am undeserving of them (which is definitely true, I am SO undeserving). However, I forget that as our Heavenly Father there are so many blessings God wishes to pour out upon us. The other day I had a bit of an epiphany. There have been so many times in my life where I have put other things (i.e. relationships, activities, television shows ;) in front of God and my relationship with Him soon became stagnant. This week, a dear friend of mine used the phrase "returning to my first love" which refers to the book of Revelation in which God tells one of the churches that they have left their first love: Him.

So this is the thought that I had: Every time I have turned to something other than God, every time I have put something in my life before him, that counts as leaving my first love. I truly believe that. So I got real with God and I repented for ever putting Him second to anything. The truth is before I knew about success, before I knew about boyfriends and books, and singing and blogging, I was in love with Jesus Christ, head over heels crazy in love with Him. It is high time I return to that crazy intense love that I once knew. And you know what? When we make God the center of our lives, everything else will begin to fall into place. All of the things I have longed for will be right at my fingertips. Even more than that, God wants me to have those things! In Psalm 37:4 the psalmist writes "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

What an awesome God we serve to not only die on the cross for us, but to forgive us over and over again. And He doesn't stop there! He wants, WANTS to give us everything we ever desired. I am so amazed by Him.